Post by Sammy on Jan 31, 2011 21:37:48 GMT -6
...the world were weightless.
Dramaz, I know. You'd think I should be good at them, though, considering the meandering posts I write. Anyway, on topic.
I'm not leaving. No way...no matter how much I might get frustrated or peevish or prickly (especially when I find out things regarding people I'm meant to trust), I stick around. I still will stick around.
Hec, I don't even know why I'm writing an LOA. It's only for a fortnight, at most, and knowing me, I'll be back trying to post within a seven day. I guess I'm just writing it for the people who I might be fond of, might be posting with, and anyone who could call me out as a Global Mod. for not being a 'good example (SHUT UP, REQUIEM xD)' if I don't. Yes, this is even for the people who've hurt my feelings through my learning they're not quite the friend or RP buddy I thought they were (if you're feeling guilty reading this bit, that's not my fault. You know you're in the wrong).
So anyway...I'm just taking a couple of days off, at the least. I have serious reasons for it, I swear that much. I'll still probably log on, knowing me, but if not, I'm an email or an MSN/YIM away if you need me to help with anything.
It's just...other than that, I need some days away. Physically, in IRL, I'm struggling to balance my military career with a lot of personal issues arising from my past. And of course...the fact that in five days, at 5:22pm...when I was posting to you, Dingo, and you, Req, and you Pooz...I remember it so well...it'll be a year bang on since I lost my Pop, also the man who took the place of my cretan father in my life. So you can see why I'm a little wobblier than usual.
As for here, I need to take some time to sort my head. Because seriously, I feel like there's some serious negativity creeping up on this place. I admit to being quite a harsh Moderator/fellow RPer at times...but I'm never nasty. Not deliberately. If I have a problem, I have it out to the person's face. I don't whinge about them behind their back, and if I do, I'm at their face about it an hour later. For goddsake, I definitely don't get jealous...in short, I try to be fair. I'm genuinely fond of more of you than you might realise...and yet...when I find out hearsay that *some* of you aren't as steadfast...it hurts. It stings, a bit.
Also, I tire of some of the tantrums. It's just RP, people who this is directed at. Grow up. Accept the big picture, or god help you IRL. Hec, you can't even claim realism on a WILD HORSE RP...be reasonable...there's problems.
Yes, heartless, nasty Sammy admits to feeling bee-stings and being affected when she has to deal with that shit. I NO RITE. SHOCKING.
Seriously though, that aside...I'm not done. I'll be back every day again in the next fortnight or so. In the mean time, I believe I have these in waiting for me/with you guys:
honey, i'm home - Dingo and Hoss (and Lejea)
lift high the load -- Dingo
ukutsushi - leira and Requiem
my sanctuary - leira and Requiem
just to know you're alive - requiem and rileyana (?)
...that thread with Wings, Flame. xD
And if I've missed anyone...owe any where...you want me to post, just put it on this list.
Much love,
Sammy <3
P.S. Also, Apollo's guard - MY TERRITORY DAMN IT SO LEAVE IT ALONE JESUS ASIAF;
P.P.S. Hey Pooz, this has little to do with what we've been speaking of. No sweat, 'kay?
Dramaz, I know. You'd think I should be good at them, though, considering the meandering posts I write. Anyway, on topic.
I'm not leaving. No way...no matter how much I might get frustrated or peevish or prickly (especially when I find out things regarding people I'm meant to trust), I stick around. I still will stick around.
Hec, I don't even know why I'm writing an LOA. It's only for a fortnight, at most, and knowing me, I'll be back trying to post within a seven day. I guess I'm just writing it for the people who I might be fond of, might be posting with, and anyone who could call me out as a Global Mod. for not being a 'good example (SHUT UP, REQUIEM xD)' if I don't. Yes, this is even for the people who've hurt my feelings through my learning they're not quite the friend or RP buddy I thought they were (if you're feeling guilty reading this bit, that's not my fault. You know you're in the wrong).
So anyway...I'm just taking a couple of days off, at the least. I have serious reasons for it, I swear that much. I'll still probably log on, knowing me, but if not, I'm an email or an MSN/YIM away if you need me to help with anything.
It's just...other than that, I need some days away. Physically, in IRL, I'm struggling to balance my military career with a lot of personal issues arising from my past. And of course...the fact that in five days, at 5:22pm...when I was posting to you, Dingo, and you, Req, and you Pooz...I remember it so well...it'll be a year bang on since I lost my Pop, also the man who took the place of my cretan father in my life. So you can see why I'm a little wobblier than usual.
As for here, I need to take some time to sort my head. Because seriously, I feel like there's some serious negativity creeping up on this place. I admit to being quite a harsh Moderator/fellow RPer at times...but I'm never nasty. Not deliberately. If I have a problem, I have it out to the person's face. I don't whinge about them behind their back, and if I do, I'm at their face about it an hour later. For goddsake, I definitely don't get jealous...in short, I try to be fair. I'm genuinely fond of more of you than you might realise...and yet...when I find out hearsay that *some* of you aren't as steadfast...it hurts. It stings, a bit.
Also, I tire of some of the tantrums. It's just RP, people who this is directed at. Grow up. Accept the big picture, or god help you IRL. Hec, you can't even claim realism on a WILD HORSE RP...be reasonable...there's problems.
Yes, heartless, nasty Sammy admits to feeling bee-stings and being affected when she has to deal with that shit. I NO RITE. SHOCKING.
Seriously though, that aside...I'm not done. I'll be back every day again in the next fortnight or so. In the mean time, I believe I have these in waiting for me/with you guys:
honey, i'm home - Dingo and Hoss (and Lejea)
lift high the load -- Dingo
ukutsushi - leira and Requiem
my sanctuary - leira and Requiem
just to know you're alive - requiem and rileyana (?)
...that thread with Wings, Flame. xD
And if I've missed anyone...owe any where...you want me to post, just put it on this list.
Much love,
Sammy <3
P.S. Also, Apollo's guard - MY TERRITORY DAMN IT SO LEAVE IT ALONE JESUS ASIAF;
P.P.S. Hey Pooz, this has little to do with what we've been speaking of. No sweat, 'kay?